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i was fourteen
when my best friend’s
mother pulled me aside
and told me
you’ve lost so much weight
you’re beautiful
good job
fingers smelled of gastric acid
but at least i looked beautiful
i was fourteen
when a teacher i had
never spoken to
took the liberty
and told me
be proud
of how much weight you’ve lost
you look great
stomach growled
but at least i looked great
i was fourteen
and never once
did anyone take the time
to validate me as a person
a human being
all i ever heard is that i was beautiful
but only after inviting
a monster
into my head
— i am 22 and these words will haunt me forever